What you said was too close to what I know you all truly feel about me, to be play.
Cruel words are easy to swallow from people whose opinions mean little to me, but from those I care for, and where everyone else can read them... to say I was simply humiliated would be an understatement.
okay, yeah, i took that too far i didn't think you'd take it that seriously... i mean we don't ACTUALLY think that about you. i don't. you know that right?
At the very least, I resolve to become more independent.
For I would not feel comfortable asking you to assist my undressing again, and I... should be able to do it by myself. Perhaps I have relied on you all too much.
I don't know, but I am uncertain if I feel up to company in my current state.
that's not what i asked! i mean, that's great and all, sure but you don't have to go and start doing that all on your own just because i picked on you about it!! if we didn't want to help you, we wouldn't. even if we complain, we do it because we're your friends.
it'll be awhile before i get there anyway, but i'm gonna find a way to make this right before then. you'll see. i'll think of something
I want to 'pull my weight', as they say. It is unfair of me to demand so much effort and attention when there is little I can do for you all in return.
I appreciate your apology, and I'm sorry for... everything.
stop apologizing, dummy!! you didn't do anything i'm the one who shot my mouth off or my writing off or whatever, on your poetry thing i should've just butted out. you were only trying to show off your art
oh i got it hold that thought STOP APOLOGIZING but hold the other thoughts
surprise 2/2 what up my names jared im 16 and i never learned how to fucking read
( it is a long time to Hold That Thought, but after an hour or so, the Holdening can finally end: )
ok turn the page
( and on the next page is this: a Renaissance Fucking Masterpiece. )
( the flowers are pressed in as well, and the Leavings from the various things he used to make this are evident in the grainy texture. dirt, grass, bits of flowers and berries... blood?? ????? ?? ? it's downright fucking transcendent. scholars will puzzle over this for generations. )
( embarrassing, humiliatingly stupid GARBAGE TRASH FOR BABIES, but dohalim likes this crap, and if he points out how dumb it is, that will diminish the efforts he's making here. so he doesn't. )
yeah! this is kind of how i did it when i was a kid i made it with mud and leaves and stuff i found here. and i found some flowers i thought you'd like that aren't zeugles in disguise, see? they're really
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well i guess i can do the job first and then come by after?
think you'll be free then?
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Please enjoy the sights of Kiichpan at your leisure.
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seriously? i thought you'd be chomping at the bit to show me around...
is everything ok??? did i miss something?
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WAIT IS THIS ABOUT YESTERDAY?
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( wait that didn't come out right )
NO WAIT that's not what i meant! you're not entirely useless!
( nailed it???? )
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How charitable of you.
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you didn't seriously think i was serious did you?? come ON
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it's not like that's the first time i called your poetry dumb, what's the big deal?
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Cruel words are easy to swallow from people whose opinions mean little to me, but from those I care for, and where everyone else can read them... to say I was simply humiliated would be an understatement.
1/2
wait hold on
( ...he has to flip back pages to even look at what he said because he's honestly forgotten at this point. )
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oh
okay, yeah, i took that too far
i didn't think you'd take it that seriously... i mean we don't ACTUALLY think that about you. i don't. you know that right?
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I'm not that stupid.
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i mean i guess so but it wasn't like THAT
and that doesn't even matter because you're still our friend and we like you anyway, so
so yeah
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i shouldn't have said all that. i didn't mean it, honest
how can i make it up to you?
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For I would not feel comfortable asking you to assist my undressing again, and I... should be able to do it by myself. Perhaps I have relied on you all too much.
I don't know, but I am uncertain if I feel up to company in my current state.
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i mean, that's great and all, sure
but you don't have to go and start doing that all on your own just because i picked on you about it!!
if we didn't want to help you, we wouldn't. even if we complain, we do it because we're your friends.
it'll be awhile before i get there anyway, but i'm gonna find a way to make this right before then. you'll see.
i'll think of something
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I appreciate your apology, and I'm sorry for... everything.
And I promise to show you around Kiichpan.
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i'm the one who shot my mouth off
or
my writing off or whatever, on your poetry thing
i should've just butted out. you were only trying to show off your art
oh i got it
hold that thought
STOP APOLOGIZING but hold the other thoughts
surprise 2/2 what up my names jared im 16 and i never learned how to fucking read
ok turn the page
( and on the next page is this: a Renaissance Fucking Masterpiece. )
( the flowers are pressed in as well, and the Leavings from the various things he used to make this are evident in the grainy texture. dirt, grass, bits of flowers and berries... blood?? ????? ?? ? it's downright fucking transcendent. scholars will puzzle over this for generations. )
its
its us
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Oh my.
It's... I will cherish it forever.
I had no idea you were so creative.
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( embarrassing, humiliatingly stupid GARBAGE TRASH FOR BABIES, but dohalim likes this crap, and if he points out how dumb it is, that will diminish the efforts he's making here. so he doesn't. )
yeah! this is kind of how i did it when i was a kid
i made it with mud and leaves and stuff i found here.
and i found some flowers i thought you'd like that aren't zeugles in disguise, see?
they're really
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colorful
( sure )
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